Him

I’ve been having a long-distance relationship, however I have had to break it off a while back. He’d become disinterested and always too busy to talk to me. I loved him way more than he loved me. I needed him more than he needed me. He didn’t seem bothered whether I was in his life or not, I realised. He had his friends – he’s a popular guy, and he had plentyof girls to talk to. I was just another girl one of them. He had always made me feel insecure. I guess I just didn’t want to let him go because I didn’t want to be alone. I didn’t want to lose that connection we had at the beginning. We had been talking every day, but he had lost interest in me as time went on. It has not even been a year yet since we first talked. I knew I deserved better, and that it is better to be alone than be with someone who is only half there.. I had finally found the courage to break it off, to move on with my life instead of constantly pining after him and desperately wanting him, and being insecure. I’ve been okay for a coupleof weeks, trying to keep busy. But every now and then, my mind goes back to him. I find myself crying and wanting him back. Even though I do know that he won’t change and that I deserve someone better. He’s somebody who didn’t treat me right, but I loved him. My mind knows that going back is a bad idea. I just need some way of moving on and to stop crying over him when I’m alone. To be happy without him.

2 thoughts on “Him

  • mm
    24/10/2016 at 19:43
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    Honestly, I think you made the right choice in walking away then

  • mm
    24/10/2016 at 19:48
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    Sorry, didn’t mean to hit enter. But you did make the right choice in walking away. It’s not been a super long time, but maybe start trying to put yourself out there again. Go out with some friends, try to meet new people, live your life. I have a philosophy that I know is hard but it works. One weekend, left yourself be absolutely sad over it. Cry, scream, eat a lot of ice cream, watch sad movies, etc. After that, it’s time to move on and start building yourself up again. Get it all out of your system then move on. He doesn’t sound like he is worth much more of your time than that.

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